nerves!!!trauma..

pg td p daki bukit larut.....
daki smpai atas...
huhu...
kebosanan kat ats tu..
aku smpat temu duga bro ats tu..
time aku p makan..
aku p daki ngan xmakan nye..
penat nk mampos la..
nyaris x pengsan je..
huhu..
bro tu kate..
bosan dek ats ni...
aku yg xdok atas tu pon da bosan ngan hdop ni...
hhhmmm..
dlam pjalanan turon..
aku nyaris2 jdi mngsa tnah runtoh..
dpan mate aku pokok tu tumbang..
kalau kcik xpe..
mak aih..
5 kali gande besar aku..
traoma doh..
aku blek td diam je...
trauma..
huhu......
papae...
alhamdulillah aku selamat....
=)

just keep it on....

faced a lots of hurts.....
always wet with a lots of cries.....
don't know what to say....
i'm speechless.....
and now....
i really alone....
i've promise...
no one after her...
so..
i decide...
thats what i should do....
but....
hhhmmmmmm.......
what can make my life coloured again...
my life now just in black and white..
no any colour else...
so.....
she have got a better than me...
im happy for it.....
i wish a best for you....
i still need her...
but in my condition now..
she don't understand me...
so....
i don't want to forced her to be mine and still love me...
because....,
the real me is already died....
and it will gone forever....
never comes back...
so...
can u accept me with other me.????
not the old one...
now i just have  my friend..,thats can make me happy...
but...
my heart is still crying coz losing u...
i don't know what going on..
i just want to find back my life....
but...
u.....
never understand....
i let u go,because i know,all this will happened....
are u still remember what i've told u....
that happened now right....
my instinct never wrong....
i don't want u always cry coz of me....
now...
u really hates me...
its ok...
i never blame you all that happened...
azam da ckap, kalau azam nk jdi pendiam,azam la pendiam yg pling  hebat....
are u still remember that...
so,
this the real me....
i'll be the old me...
if,u always understand and be with me....
a true love,is a love that always with cries and pains....
you never understand all this....

seConD cHanCe..a.k.a peluAng keDua....

hhhmmmmmm...
should i take the chance???
or...just let it disappear???
hhhmmm...
don't know.....
move on with my life,without her...
huh,something hard for me..,
i just don't want her disappointed coz of me...
hhhmmmm....
she never lose hope for me???
should i give her a chance???
or i should let if gone???
i don't say i don't want...
i don't say i want...
please...
help me....
i'm always disappointed her...so...
i don't want to do it more......
so..should i have the second chance???
or,let it go far away????
don't know.....
seriously don't know....
now...i have a sister that can make me smile...
but,it's not same like what i have one time ago...
i still love her,but i can't still with her....
weird things right???
hhhmmm....
so bored have this kind of life....
bored!!!!bored!!!!
i can't smile like the past..
what i have one time ago..
now,just a memories..
my happiness,my smile...
my life...
and......
my heart.....
my love...
emmmm...
my......girlfriend...,
that i really love her.....
i've to forget alll this memories....
can i do it...
i don't know....
allright...
just move on with what i have now....
hAhA!!!